Laziness, avoidance, procrastination. I have been kidnapped by the webs. I know that there are still many things to do, but because I feel anxious when I think about it, I reflexively tell myself, "Don't think about it, just don't think about it", and turn to the screen that is like a black hole, the huge suction, like suspending my whole mind in a vacuum, numb,
and then there is Void.

I was like throwing myself into a different world, as if time stood still there, refusing to think, study, face-to-face with people, be healthy, or exercise, and I would lie down. The more you lie down, the more decadent, the more powerless, the more negative you become.